Too Much For Me....

Ugh...This is too much for me.....I guess that's because of all the events and tests going on right now....Plus, I'm beginning to hate my brother even MORE.

In case you don't know, my brother and I have this love-hate relationship, but for me, it's mostly hate...He's beginning to disgust me and I can't take it any more. Most of the time, I just want to go outside and scream my lungs out. I hate being near him and I hate taking a glance at him. That's why I keep on promising myself to hold on and to not give up. I can't give up right in front of him. That would mean I lost and I don't want to lose to HIM. You know, when I grow up, I just want to move away....this place gives me bad memories and I can't stay here any longer. Maybe I might come back, but I guess the future will have to decide...Some day, maybe some day, I could live in a beach or in the mountains....there, I could take a walk and get rid of all my worries and problems. Better yet, I could move in a bigger city like New York or Chicago so all the hustling can wipe all the bad stuff away....

Right now, I'm doing sports, which in my opinion, relieves stress. I could take my anger out on a shuttle or a volleyball or run (even though I don't like running that much). That way, I won't break anything (e.g. slamming the door, slamming the table, hitting the chairs....you know what I mean....). But, hey! I'm feeling better now!!! :)

Featuring the CST (and the swine flu)!!!!

And CST has gotten me pinned down on the wrestling ring...and I'm really trying to get up....UGH!!!! I HATE the CST...especially when I have to be stuck with Mr. Brown for a couple hours.....I guess my nightmare has come true....NOOOO!!!!!

See what I told you? the media makes everyone scared....With the swine flu going on, we have to be "extra careful" with the things we touch. Two of my teachers bought this big bottle of sanitizer and one of them told us to sneeze, cough, and blow our noses outside of the classroom....(even though that was a couple days ago, but who cares!). And then my mom got all paranoid about it....